Identity Crisis
We've been together for...what? Approximately 9 weeks or so, right? So, I think we have reached that point where we can really start to do some introspective reflection. (I'm being facetious here, intentionally. I really do know all your blogs require introspection, and that you have willingly (I hope) given yourselves over to that.)
So, although I cannot make you do this, I would like you to minimize all distractions while you think about this blog. Exercise your right to have "You" time; put away your phones or tv remotes and for the sake of all that's holy--stop playing Fortnite or whatever time suck application/site you have open. I know those things are necessary to, in some cases, restore sanity, unwind or engage in healthy social discourse--but for now, maximize the "quiet." And really think about this question.
Every day, you wake up, go through your morning rituals, come to school, do your thing(s), go home, go through your evening rituals and then go to bed.
There are obviously some variations to this routine from time to time, and I am not trying to downplay your life in any way by making it sound mundane; that is not the idea here.
What I am saying is, that through all of this, these daily activities, rituals and routines people interact with you.
They talk to you, refer to you, question you, yell at you, soothe you, talk about you, defer to you or, in some cases, though hopefully not many, ignore you completely. The point is, they KNOW who you are, at least enough to do one or more of the previous things.
But, when you stop to think about it, do they really know? And, more importantly, do YOU?
Beyond names, job titles or academic or athletic accomplishments, beyond labels given by yourself or by others, who are you?
Who are you inside?
If you had to write your name, and then your definition, what would it say?
Would it be a collection of traits, hobbies and virtues? Would you be able to strip yourselves cleanly of those three things and still define yourself?
Why or why not?
Ready, set, GO....
So, although I cannot make you do this, I would like you to minimize all distractions while you think about this blog. Exercise your right to have "You" time; put away your phones or tv remotes and for the sake of all that's holy--stop playing Fortnite or whatever time suck application/site you have open. I know those things are necessary to, in some cases, restore sanity, unwind or engage in healthy social discourse--but for now, maximize the "quiet." And really think about this question.
Every day, you wake up, go through your morning rituals, come to school, do your thing(s), go home, go through your evening rituals and then go to bed.
There are obviously some variations to this routine from time to time, and I am not trying to downplay your life in any way by making it sound mundane; that is not the idea here.
What I am saying is, that through all of this, these daily activities, rituals and routines people interact with you.
They talk to you, refer to you, question you, yell at you, soothe you, talk about you, defer to you or, in some cases, though hopefully not many, ignore you completely. The point is, they KNOW who you are, at least enough to do one or more of the previous things.
But, when you stop to think about it, do they really know? And, more importantly, do YOU?
Beyond names, job titles or academic or athletic accomplishments, beyond labels given by yourself or by others, who are you?
Who are you inside?
If you had to write your name, and then your definition, what would it say?
Would it be a collection of traits, hobbies and virtues? Would you be able to strip yourselves cleanly of those three things and still define yourself?
Why or why not?
Ready, set, GO....
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ReplyDelete(I didn’t put in a lot of details about myself here because this is sort of apart of my occasional paper)
ReplyDeleteKimberly Shaw- a girl who constantly tries her best not knowing the outcome, has a lot of emotional baggage, lacks emotion, doesn’t know her future but tries to keep a high outlook on life, wants the best for herself but doesn’t know how to provide that
Okay that’s not me completely, but it’s pretty close. On the inside I’m either shining with happiness or constantly sad. But no one would know that, what I show is what I choose to present to society. I know I’m a very kind person, no one has to reassure me of that. I know I have a good heart and good morals. I also know I’m someone who struggles with emotions. Not entirely my fault, but a lot of it is about me holding myself back, fearful of the outcome. I’m not sure why but that’s a part of who I am… I think.
Moving on, I’m someone who is so strong but has never gotten the right kind of recognition for it. I always feel overlooked, but I’ve sort of made sense of that by trying to overlook the fact that the same is being done to me. My life isn’t focussed on recognition, that’s no way to live but it has made me put two and two together. The lack of acknowledgement I’ve gotten in certain areas of my life, has made me not able to accept compliments easily or not able to comprehend how someone would want to reward me for something I’ve done.
I know I’m a good kid, eh.. More like an average kid. Not truly gifted and blessed with anything special but also not completely incapable of doing great things. I think I overlook a lot of amazing things about myself. I try to tell myself it’s okay to feel that way but it’s still frustrating. It’s like not knowing your purpose, it’s a really lost feeling. That’s probably the best way I can describe myself; lost. But just because I’m “lost” doesn’t mean I hate life or anything. I’m just ready to find out what I do in life and what kind of person I mold to be. I honestly don’t enjoy answering questions like “who am I” because I’m only 16. I have views and preferences which shouldn’t be ignored but still, there’s no way to know who I really am yet, I have too many emotions and worries running through my head on a daily basis to figure that out. Maybe this is just me doubting my greatness again, who knows. But here’s some of my thoughts, and part of the way I think, enjoy.
ReplyDeleteI'm Alexandra Marie Estrada Bello. I live in the future and I have a clear path of where I want to venture off in life. I have low self esteem when it comes to my exterior but I know I'm kind, strong, determined and crazy. I'd rather be in a gym than wasting time on my phone. I try to look a things positively, even if I'm upset.
That's the only way I can define myself without it being three pages long. I also don't like to expose myself like this. I'm so many things and yet I'm nothing. I know that makes no sense at all but look at it this way:
A snowflake is so beautiful and so precisely made, not one is alike. While its in the sky, it's lonely yet shining. But when it hits the ground you cant pick it apart. The snowflake mocks a glass sword because its so frail yet strong.
And I guess I'm the snowflake? It depends how you interpret it but that's me calling myself average for the most part. I also know that there's no one else like me, and that goes for everyone. No one can possibly have the same exact personality as anyone else. I think that's what's so cool about the human race.
It's weird but throughout 7th and 8th grade, I used to watch a show on Disney called "Girl meets World." Its basically our version of "Boy Meets World." If you haven't seen it, go watch it. Besides the point the show taught me a lot and it actually shaped the way I think today. One of the biggest messages I took from the show was that people change people. Therefore I think that we should never put a hardcore definition on ourselves. We are always evolving. Especially at this age, in two years I'm not going to be the same person I am today. On that note I'm ending this blog.
With love, Alex.
Jenna Nicole Miller- A friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend, niece, cousin. Jenna is a seemingly outgoing person with a seemingly good life ahead of her. Two parents, good income, no major worries. Jenna seems outgoing but only to hide her true feelings of worthlessness and sorrow. She tries to have people like her but that doesn't always work out. She cares so much about others and will always put other peoples problems before her own. Jenna is a messy person with awful hand writing, but that's okay because life is messy. She has a wall up and doesn't like letting people in. If she does let people in it is because the issue has passed or she trusts them enough. She wants everyone to see her as brave but really she is scared and vulnerable. Jenna loves her family (even though she doesnt always show it). With everything in her life gone she will be a disaster. She tries her best and tries to get along with others. She is not confident in herself at all but fakes it till she makes it, ya know? She wants everyone to know that if anything is ever wrong you can go to her.
ReplyDeleteIf you take away her exterior self and let others view it some people may be scared, others may relate, and I believe many will love talking to her. She isn't the same person you may see in school, there is so much more.
Sammi Chen: A girl who is willing to do anything to make her parents proud. She gives love in every possible way, yet has the fear to accept it. She’s afraid to show her true emotions because she’s scared. She is sometimes annoying, however she just wishes for the best that comes at her.
ReplyDeleteI tried my best to sum up what I truly believe what I think is me. On the outside, people see me as any other random person they saw in the hallways, but inside I’m an extremely sensitive person. I always try to be positive and not show my emotions to others because I have fear that people are going to judge me if I show my real self. I know I am somebody that is willing to be kind to others and has a big heart. I give so much, yet I always feel like I don’t receive the amount of love that I give.
I am somebody who is so hard working, yet I have a reputation that is so different from that. Deep down inside I know and believe that I put the effort and time into things. I’ve been working since the summer of 8th grade. The amount of time consumption that gets taken away from me due to work is insane, however I do what I need to do and get it done. I know others might not consider me to be this, but I know inside that I am.
These are just some of the views that I think that bests describes me. I always believe that since I am at such a young age, changes will always be an option for me and I can’t describe how I truly am now. What I think that bests describes me now, might be completely different from how I describe myself in 10 years. I always open to changes that will come my way whenever the time is right.
Well I am stumped. I'm not entirely sure what people think of me and I'm not sure how I really think of myself. Part of me thinks I'm really annoying (which I don't think is wrong) and part of me says other people are annoying (which isn't wrong either). Things I can definitely say about my self is that I make people laugh and like 99% of the time I don't even know how. I can say that I'm tall and that I sleep a lot. I also (kinda off topic) really love kids from 3-8 because they're so much fun to play with. Basically, those are my main defining traits. Inside, I'd like to think I'm a generous person and sort of laid back. Inside I'm also like kinda empty (well right now at least). I think my internal amount of stress has reached a level where I feel calm. It's a little weird but I definitely prefer it. What else? Hmmm. On the inside I'm determined, especially when I want to be, and a little hotheaded. I can control myself pretty well sometimes too and I think that is really it. I can't think of any other defining characteristics that would better suit me. If I were to define myself it would most likely look like "Jackson: A tall brown-haired boy who is overly talkative, has three main modes (Sad, Relaxed, Off the Walls) and has a strange sense of humor that is somewhat relatable." I could 99.9% guarantee that someone could read the first ten words and guess me. Honestly, I don't think I would be anything without those traits. I'd merely be the husk of a human. Those traits are the basic outline of me. Without those traits, I'd be some jumbled mess of depression and sleep. And therefore, I am grateful for these traits. Although not everyone enjoys them, I make sure to use them daily in order to evolve them as well as myself. Hopefully this gives you some insight in to my internal character.
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ReplyDeleteMason Stokes (noun)- a human being who on the outside might seem like a mean person who is cold hearted and doesn’t care about other people's feelings and opinions. Most would say he is cocky and thinks he is better than everyone else. On the inside he is a caring person who would put himself after others he really cares about, a person who holds his head high but also understands that he isn’t the best at everything, a person who loves to joke around, a kid that loves competing with the best in anything, and is always looking for a new challenge to push myself to another level.
ReplyDeleteThat is how I would define myself and I’m sure if you asked other people that would have much different opinions of who I really am but those who really know me would agree with what I just said. I personally don't think there is a better way to describe who I really am than the way I just did. The reason I think this is because If you stripped me of all those traits I wouldn’t have anything because I pride myself on those things everyday. I am very happy with the person I am today and that's not saying that there is nothing I can't improve on but I think I’m at good spot right now.
I am a person who values the ones close to me and their emotional effect on me more than anything. I try to be sympathetic to as many people as i can. Other than that my life is pretty much just a work in progress. I never talk about how i feel because i don't know what to say. Living with my brain so out of focus and thinking about other things is hard and leaves me nothing to work with in real life, sometimes i don't even know or understand where my head is at even after it's straight. My brain feels like a gigantic fish tank that someone keeps emptying out and refilling as well as putting new fish in there. Idk tbh it's pretty cool. People misunderstand me, i only care about other people. Money, reputation, grades none of it is even comparable to how i value a person to talk to or understand me. Especially nowadays, where it's becoming rare for people to love you for who you are instead of what you have, what you are willing to give, or what you have done.
ReplyDeleteIf I had to define myself it would look something like this: Gabbie Costantini- a good human being with a huge heart. It looks short and simple, but it is right, and it took me a while to realize this. I put everyone before myself, and care so much about people. I am very protective over my friends and it might come off as standoffish when I disagree with something they are doing, but it is only because I am worried about their well-being. A little bit ago I ended a relationship with someone because I wanted to focus on bettering my mental state and I hurt them a lot by doing that, and even though they were really understanding, I still felt like a horrible person for finally putting myself first. My friends helped me through that though, saying that me bettering myself is the important thing, and I agree with them.
ReplyDeleteI got texts the other day saying, "Gabbie you always know what to say. Like you're good at comforting people even if you can't relate at the time. You always respond so nicely and loving, I love you, you're such a good and genuine person." I started crying right away. I guess that describes me perfectly, because I strive to be a safe place for people. I am known as the mom as my friend group and my friends have said they feel safe around me, and even though I try and front and tell them to shut up, I love that so much. Knowing someone feels secure and comfortable around you is one of the best feelings.
This took me a while to think about and honestly stumped me. This is a question that is always in the back of my mind and this blog made me actually get to think about it. So, who am I? The first thing that came to my mind was the word annoying, sikee naahhh. Okay the first word that came to my mind was strong. I am many things but strong will always stick to me. I have been through so many things and some traumatic experiences but I push through, I cry about it then put a smile on my face and continue through my day and try my hardest to stay positive. I’m strong because I’m standing here today having hope. I have hope that everything going wrong in my life will get better. I hide my struggles very well that 98% of the time nobody will notice what's going on inside at all and if someone does it means so much. I admire myself for that. I’m a people pleaser, sometimes I feel like I live my life for others and not myself. Kinda makes me feel like a zombie. I try to make people happy but never think about myself and if I’m happy. One of the reasons why I try so hard to be happy and keep a smile on my face is because I don’t want to let anybody down and I don’t want to make anybody sad and I know that one smile might make someone's whole day. I let people walk all over me because when I love people I love them hard. I’m kind, a pushover, a lover, a hard worker, I have a big heart for everyone I meet. I sometimes feel like my heart is so heavy in a good way because of all the love I carry for everybody. I’m a mess but I’m a pretty “put together” mess if that makes any sense. I have such a good heart it puts me in so many bad situations and I struggle to make decisions for my well being and to put myself first. I’m not going to sit here and tell whoever is reading this that the life I live and the way I live it for other people is a good thing because sometimes it's not. But there is just a feeling I cannot completely describe when I make someone smile or when I make someone happy. There's a feeling I get that words aren’t enough to express it. I want to make the world happy. When people are happy I get happy.
ReplyDeleteIf I’m stripped of my hobbies, traits, and virtues it would be hard to define myself because traits explain who I am in ways I cannot. Being kind, loving,caring,giving, selfless, are traits that are words but mean so much when it comes to who I am. If I was to write my name then a definition next to it it would be “ Priscilla Crenny- a happy but sometimes way too emotional and sensitive kind, strong person”. Personality means a whole lot to me. I don't care if you are the prettiest person to walk this planet, if you treat people like shit your physical characteristics mean nothing to me. The way you treat others, the way your heart is, the way you hold open a door for someone, the way you say thank you to lunch ladies and the janitors is what hits me hard. That's the stuff that matters to me and I hope that you guys care for what's on the inside of people rather than the outside.
This question is one of the biggest questions I’ve struggled about with myself. I always find myself asking, is this really me? Is this who I am? If I had to define myself, I would define myself a little like this:
ReplyDeleteBrianna Perkins (noun): a person who cares about everyone, a procrastinator and someone who always tries to find the good in everyone.
I feel as if this is a good definition for myself, because I always make sure that everyone around me is doing okay, even if that means that I might not be in the best state of mind. I often find myself stressed out to the max, but will always check up on my friends or someone I might not even know that well, because that’s just who I am. I had to put the procrastinating in there, because I do push things off under last minute, which will often cause most of my stress issues. I can’t help it and I have always been that way. The last thing that I feel is a big part of my personality is that I always try to find the good in people, even when they give me reasons not to. I can’t ever get over the fact that some people just might not be the best and they actually do cause problems. I keep trying and trying to say, “oh, they’re not that bad. They might just be having a rough time at home.” Or something along those lines. This does bite me in the butt, because most of the time when thinking these things about people, they walk all over me or just cause more problems than there already were. This question also got me to thinking that we, as a whole, are so defined in our achievements such as captain titles, sports teams, or academic titles that we can’t see past them sometimes. People are so worried about being on the varisty sports team, or being top ten in their class, that they forget about their traits as a person and what they have to offer as a friend. I feel as if we have to put these titles aside to see past these and just see someone as who they truly are. Don’t get me wrong, still go for that top ten spot in your class or to be captain on a varisty sports team, but always remember that to be a good person, you have to balance being successful and your quality of life.
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ReplyDeleteWhat we truly are, depends on how others perceive us. According to the government, we're all a unique number in a computer system. According to our family and friends, we're a cherished part of a group. According to other people, no one really cares about us.
ReplyDeleteIn all honesty, I am who I am due to others perception of me. I have modeled my personality based on other people I respect or their opinions of me. And I truly believe that's how every human in this world functions. We take what we like, integrate it into our lives, and leave the things we dislike. Obviously, what we like and dislike changes throughout our lives, which is why our personality, ideology, morals, and ethics change throughout our lives. What we are isn't something that is concretely defined at any point in our lives. Not when we're born. Not when we grow and develop. Not when we die. What we are is a combination of every experience we've been through and how others perceive us.
With this reasoning, I don't think we could define ourselves without labels from other people and ourselves. We find out who we are from each other. We can easily strip ourselves of materialistic things, but I firmly believe our emotional persona is not a concrete or absolute answer, but an ever-changing matrix due to our past, present, and future experiences.
That being said, if I were to introduce myself in an abstract, rather than a materialistic, manner, I would discuss my personality. My personality is completely subjective because it is what I think of myself. In all honesty, I don't really know my personality or "who I am", because it's ever-changing. I could list many traits about myself that I believe I am, but that could be the complete opposite of what you think of me. Who I am, only matters to me. Who you think I am, matters to you.
All in all, I took a realistic, borderline cynical, stance on this blog. Actually, it was pretty cynical. Maybe it's because I'm watching too much Rick and Morty. This is how I look at situations--always the negatives before the positives. I believe it's part of "who I am", and you may or may not agree. But everything is subjective in this world.
Gabriel Paz: A male human being that cares a lot about family and close friends. He would put them before himself any day of the week, and that is a fact. Family means so much to him because they were the people who he knew always had his back. He is a very caring person even though he might not show it everyday. He does not like when other people are in bad moods and tries to do anything to help. He is sometimes viewed as grumpy but that is because he does not like to wake up early in the morning. If he gets a good sleep, he will be in the best mood. Lots of people would say that he is a good person to be around because he could put a smile on your face even if you were sad.
ReplyDeleteAnyone who truly knows me and my true personality will know my true flaws and my better side. Those are usually the people that I care about enough to show my real self. I think that many people view me as an optimistic person. I am really good with handling my emotions when I know I could express them so easily. I think I know when to do that and when to not. I hate seeing people being down on themselves and I always try to help. I also see myself as a good leader because I always try to make the people around me better at whatever they are trying to do. If someone doesn’t like the way I act or has a problem with me, so be it. I will not be angry at them for having their own opinion but I will try to change their opinion of me in any way I can. Overall, I just want to be seen as a person who is positive and always looking at the upside of things.
I’m not really sure how to define myself without labels. I realize that I like to know how others view me and label me rather than thinking of it and doing it myself, so I can see their opinions and prospective of me.
ReplyDeleteIf I had to write my name with a definition I’d probably write:
Lyanni Rodriguez: someone who constantly falls apart and picks herself up while trying to hold everyone else up and keep them from falling themselves but also someone who relies on others. I think of myself as someone who tries to hold in all the emotional baggage and hide it away while trying to make other laugh and express myself as this happy carefree person radiating with happiness.
When thinking of things to define me and who I am, being sensitive and emotional and caring too much are immediately the first things that pop into my head. I also feel like they can be seen as weaknesses which is why I don’t like defining myself with those terms. But at the same time I feel like I shouldn’t be ashamed of that being who I am.
Inside I feel like I’ve become this strong independent girl, not just for others around me but most importantly for myself, but I know those are labels. If I stripped away my traits, hobbies,and virtues I don’t really think I’d be able to define myself. I’d just be an ordinary girl. That’s what I find so interesting about figuring out traits in others or learning about some I have myself. If I had all traits stripped away from myself I feel like there would just be a girl left
All the time I think about those around me and wonder if they TRULY know me or if I even know myself. Lately I’ve been learning a lot about who I am as a person and what makes me, me. I like to put aside the definitions everybody else has of me and really think of how I view myself and how I’d define myself. Even if it’s a label, I’d like to define myself as strong right now. This probably contradicts everything I said before but I feel like when people are described as strong, usually leader and tough are automatically associated with that. In my case I like to see myself as a strong person just because of how I’ve been able to pick myself up and be there for myself when nobody else really was. I consider myself strong internally and I’m proud of that.
So if I had to define myself without any terms that I used before, I’d say:
Lyanni is a girl who puts others ahead of herself, and hides her emotions because she’s scared of opening herself up to people, she hides behind a wall of happiness and laughter and struggles to express her feelings. She’s a girl who’s always there for herself and will forever push herself to become better and stronger.
I know these definitions of myself sound a little depressing but if I had to define myself, that’s how I’d do it. Just because I think those things define me doesn’t mean that’s all I am. I’m also, a girl who cares about others so strongly I’m willing to put that ahead of caring for myself. I’m a girl who no matter what if I’m happy or sad will try to make others laugh and put a smile on their face when I can’t do it myself.
I’m okay with the definition of myself because I know that’s just who I am and deep down that will most likely never change, but what I do hope will change is the way I feel like it’s something to be ashamed about, the fact that I, sensitive, but in reality I’m okay with it.
If i were to define myself it would be Daniel Ramirez - a person who isn’t the best at many things but he still tries his best to compete, he strives to make someone smile, he doesn't know how to show feelings but that other has to show some emotion as well. A person with a crazy laugh but it makes me unique, you just need to hear it. I am someone who is just trying to have fun and enjoy life any way i can possible and i won’t let anyone ruin my day. He can be sometimes annoying but at the end of the day he won’t care because he just laughs when people get annoyed by him. I am someone who does the same thing every single day and likes it because he doesn't like change. I do the same thing every weekend as well but i make money so I'm not complaining. This was really hard because i really don’t think about this as much as like what the other blog posts said but i was reading Eric's blog not going to lie but i liked his analogy of the fish tank. He’s right people come and go and we just have to get used to it and maintain our structure.
ReplyDeleteWell thanks to you, Bunje, I’ve fallen into a deep and dark existential crisis over this question. I literally have no idea of who I am. Then I started thinking about what my purpose is on this earth. It was a mess, to say the least. but after thinking about it for some time I’ve come to the conclusion that the best way to define me is as someone who Is nothing of what you would have expected.l am a quiet person at first, but once i open up to someone, i'm weird and crazy. I’m the kind of person that makes a good lifelong friend, part of that reason is my abandonment issues but that’s another blog. I have the ability to joke with someone, but provide good advice to anyone who needs it. I’m that person that’s easy to talk to, I want to hear it all because with all that I’ve been through I want to have a voice so I’m not trapped inside my own head. My experience with real life crazy situations allows me to connect to others on a different level that most people wouldn’t be able to. My ability to have positive interactions with others is what shapes me as a person. I don’t fully understand who I am as a person because im still young and developing my personal identity but for right now I’d say who I am is someone that lives for others.
ReplyDeleteI’m sure that my close friends see me as funny, my friends see me as caring, and strangers think I’m quiet (possibly). It’s all by guess but I know for sure my best friends and I constantly laugh, I would do anything for my friends, and I’m pretty conservative when it comes to strangers. But who am I really? Basing this off of something someone said to me once-and I totally agree with, I’m going to use his description. I really took it to heart because it was really accurate. He said to me-in a nutshell, “Katelyn, I swear you are all over the place. You are funny, serious, a mom, and special when you need to be. And all at the same time.” This was coming from someone in my section in marching band, who has spent all summer with me, so I take this opinion seriously. When I took a minute to think about it that is probably the best way I have heard anyone, including myself, describe me. Looking past all of my exterior qualities there is me on the inside. There’s a lot I have to deal with that I don’t necessarily get credit for. No, I’m not ranting about how “great” I am. I am certainly far from that, but I am at least acknowledging that I do a lot. I realized this recently when I made a doctors appointment not too long ago, concerned about how tired and fatigue I have been feeling. The only way I could describe it is overwhelming. I couldn’t find any explanation for it, so I was hoping I had some type of vitamin deficiency that I have had before, so it would be an easy fix. Unfortunately not, but we’ll get to that. She asked me what was bothering me so I tried to explain my school year to give her an idea. I have never had any problems focusing, or working, or achieving something. Not to say that “everything has come easy to me” but it has never been quite as difficult as it is. There’s no way to say this without everyone jumping on me with excuses that it is my AP classes. Inside I am determined, very very determined. And... well I’m struggling through plenty. I originally set up the appointment because I almost passed out in math class, completely out of nowhere. My ears started ringing, the lights got bright, I started getting dizzy and falling over. It was fantastic overall. Even when I got to the nurse I started throwing up. (I’m sorry, I know it’s gross) It sounded like a stomach bug to me in all honesty. I told my doctor all of this and she starts asking me about my schedule. Not “any fever?” Or, “has this happened before”. I was kind of thrown off. I told her my schedule at school, honors and AP crap. Then outside of school flute lessons, football games, parades, competitions, work, singing. Leaving me with Monday off. I have never seen anyone look at me with shock the way she did. She started ranting like a mother about how I was doing too much. My point, on the outside I am doing a lot. I am completing so many things that it’s almost impossible. On the inside I haven’t even given myself a second to notice it, I’ve become so used to it in my mind. But my body hasn’t. I am so determined to get so many tasks done that I worked myself sick. And that’s who I am in the inside, the best way I could describe myself. I am always so willing to complete, and achieve, I am selfless I’ll give myself that. Hopefully one day I will discover an equal balance for my mental health, and my work.
ReplyDeleteThe Cruise I was just on helped me to see who I really am and not having any internet/phones whatsoever for 8 days really helped me and I loved not having connection.
ReplyDeleteKaitlyn Stollenwerk: a girl who’s passionate about what she believes in and strives for what she wants. Kaitlyn has such a big heart for all her family, friends, and anyone she comes in contact with. She is only outgoing in things she’s confident in, everything else she keeps her thoughts bottled up inside. She cares about other people’s health even if it may damage her own health, but she is still willing to put things aside to help the people she truly loves. She will do anything for her loved ones. She loves to compete and while she focuses on winning, she realizes that she needs to have fun doing it. She is laid back and mostly will go with the flow of everything. She isn’t bossy, although when she has to wake up at any early time, she is very grumpy for a while. Kaitlyn is a kid who loves to see people happy and smiling and is always looking for the best in things and more challenges to push herself.
I tend to think how I am inside is different from my outside. I am only a 16 year old girl, I don’t think I truly know myself quite yet. I know that I try to make myself and parents proud with everything I do. I am looking for the best college out there for me and I am striving for the best I can be in my swimming career. I think 16 year olds know some things that are true about themselves, but there are still years ahead that will change you and help you to grow differently than you are now with the different experiences we will have.
Right now I love myself and I am very proud of who I am today,, and yes I know there is room for improvement, but I believe I have a good head on my shoulders right now and that I am in a good place.
Malachi Shelley,
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A boy, that's trying to earn the title of man, Who comes from a shattered past, but tries to not let it define him. He has mixed emotions of who he is and wants to be. Works harder than anyone he knows and hates an idle mind almost as much as he hates idle hands. He tends to lash out on the people closest to him unintentionally, and always tries to grow, and learn and be a better, smarter, stronger person. He tries to be a better person today than the person he was yesterday, because he knows he's not content with himself, and doesn't know when he will be.
ReplyDeleteOn the outside, I find myself to be a handsome young man that's always outgoing and optimistic. On the inside I think I’m fragile but strong. Like if you are trying to make fun of me or offend me it’s not going to work, because I’m strong inside. And I’m fragile because I have a soft spot for empathy, I care about other people feelings.
My name and definition would be: Angel Casanova: A kid who is always determined and hardworking. One that won’t give up on anything or anyone no matter what because he sees the good in everything. These things are what I believe define me and without them I don’t think I would be myself. I wouldn't want to be myself without these traits. I wouldn’t like myself if I was a bad person. Its not a good feeling constantly feeling guilty for yourself. That's just not part of my mindset and how I live in this world.
To start off, I don’t believe I need to define myself with my hobbies. Although drawing and painting take up a lot of my personal time, it doesn’t exactly define me as a human being.
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A very quiet and soft-spoken girl around her classmates who she’s known for years, but a whole new person around her most trusted friends. She is a genuinely kind person. It feels quite impolite for her to feel this about herself in her eyes. She fears that she is giving people the impression that she’s narcissistic. Actually, she feels that explaining how she could be interpreted as such makes her seem even more narcissistic. Also, she’s aware of all of her worries, yet she is nowhere near being stressed out (in her eyes, at least!). She takes her awareness and makes a conscious decision to not completely forget about it to the point of ignoring her issues, but to be mindful of her problems and not focus on them so much that she gets over stressed. She knows that not everyone can easily do this. It makes it hard for her to tell people about her capability to do this because she is not perfect and sometimes her strategy backfires on her; her strategy is not always reliable or applicable in all situations.
Basically, I’m just a big paradox. I self-conflict myself. I stress over the fact that I’m not stressed, because I don’t feel like I’m as stressed as I could be-- I could have it way worse.